Do your best. Don't be so hard on yourself. What you strive for and all things here will have absolutely no effect in the ethereal realm.
Here you're in a world consisting of body and accomplishments.
Be your best in all things. Learn what is blocking what is to be..or your wants.
First and foremost be thankful. This is your most important lesson.
Remember your soul cares about being..not doing.
(message to me from my angels today)
Walk within and see a world of ideas and processes to guide you within your life. From teachers to stones possessing energy to calm and enhance your world and those you love. Learn ideas and processes you have heard of and chose which feels right for you to try. The gifts and treasures that are shared are endless. May you find your happy in this realm and enjoy every day to its fullest.